drat these thoughts that come and go in my mind, disrupting my silence and demanding action for notions that to be honest are just thoughts going round and round, worries, nonsense, stories that part of my brain uses to fill in the gaps. it is designed for that you know, our left brain is designed to fill in the gaps of what we don't know in order to have a coherent and flowing story from beginning to end. all of those taking-things-personally, guessing-at-others'-thoughts, images-of-times-gone-awry, all the left brain's attempts at uniformity, story flow, let's face it- ease. it is easier to go over and over the same grooves than to make new grooves. it is easier to worry when the pieces are all filled in. and to be honest, there's nothing at all wrong with that, with our left brain doing what it does best. it's when we only do what our left brain does that the problems start, the dysfunctions, the stories take over our lives, what would be our lives.

reading through more of My Stroke of Insight and she talks about scheduling her left brain's thoughts, stories, on-and-on's from 9-9:30 am and 9-9:30 pm and if it misses those slots, too bad. I have tried this and had some success and realized too that there are some real concerns that we can't schedule and when those pop up they must be given attention. perhaps that is where the left brain really shines. for the others, I do find that letting them go, moving on to other thoughts that are uplifting, even and especially to silence and presence, is preferred and brings with it amazing results. this I have found opens up time and space to now, which is after all where we all are anyway. behold the flow of life when we are actually here!

whoops here comes another story line, another thought.