real time writing

or, how to make time for this writing thing even with everything else that goes on around here. or because of it.

something about reading henry miller a few months back that inspired me. something about the concept of writing things exactly as they are, as they came to him. i wonder at the truthfulness of this in his actual work. i wonder about reading a bit more about him and by him to get to the bottom of it all or if i will cease and desist, letting what i think about what he means linger in my mind rather than trying to prove it's truthfulness. whatever that is.

i did get the idea to read something {more} by sartre while reading and thinking about authenticity today. this in particular caught my attention-

authenticity is connected with creativity: the impetus to action must arise from the person in question, and not be externally imposed.

from there, and even more to the point, for me at least, was this quote about erich fromm-

Thus a Frommean authentic may behave consistently in a manner that accords with cultural norms, but for the reason that those norms appear on consideration to be appropriate, rather than blindly, simply because they happen to be the current norms. Fromm thus considers authenticity to be a positive outcome of enlightened and informed motivation rather than a negative outcome of rejection of the expectations of others. He described the latter condition - the drive to primarily escape external restraints typified by the "absolute freedom" of Sartre - as "the illusion of individuality", as opposed to the genuine individuality that results from authentic living.

oh ah. obviously i will be searching out some more information about authenticity with that in mind. believing i do not exist in a bubble as well as wanting to listen as closely to my own heart as possible, and all that.

...with the caveat that i don't believe the words of others can necessarily explain our own experience for us, although sometimes they may very well point us in the right direction. or sometimes not. sometimes the direction we hadn't thought of is the one where we finally hear our own voice, listen to our own heart and trust that this- wherever we are right now- is simply where we are. and that this is true for each. of. us. and that this- this trust in ourselves- is where we all started out and where we are all headed, regardless of the how-of-it or even the why.